VINDICATED

Everybody is frightened sometimes. Loud thunder and a bright flash of lightning scares me. I dont want being scared to keep me from doing something I really want or need to do. I'll just go slow, be brave, and do it anyway. When being scared means I need to be careful, I will pay attention and be careful. No I'm not scared of loving you. I will take my time in everything I am doing, so I can keep my fears small.

To be trusted by those who love us, we need to tell the truth. The reason if i lie is because I'm afraid that telling the truth will get them into trouble. But I was told it works just the opposite of that. If I tell 'you' a lie and 'you' catches me at it, then I'm in a trouble for sure. But promised me not to getmad if i always tell the truth, even if what I did was not so good. I've not been lying. I've never betrayed your love. I will always tell the truth. Lying makes things too complicated for us, anyway.

"My dear Picaresque, you came into my life and make me fly again. You twinkled my heart with your perfections. The only guy I treasured the most. Please don't stop saying 'I LOVE YOU'. Hold me tight and I'll hold you tight. Never let it loose."

I love that feeling.You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like its going to be okay.When you're hopeless as can be and life is going nowhere,there's those moments we have every now and then where we just stop and we get this feeling , that cant be described, hahs.You just feel like everything is going to be alright. Like the world stop spinning for a second and everything was clear. There's no lies in between us. I love you.

I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. You’re such a bustard!

I’ve got to really plan out my time management cos I really sucks in managing time. I multi-task almost everyday and I almost stressed out. That shouldn’t be the way. I want to believe in it all again>>in art, fate, and love. And I want to believe that I’ve made the right choice and that I’m on the right path and there’s still time to fix the mistakes I’ve made. And I guess I want hope. I don’t want to be left alone behind. I need to start studying now. enough with entertainment, it brings you nowhere. I’ve got to control myself or it’ll get worst. I believe in karma, time is always not by our side. Time to get myself settled down with calculators and assessment book in front of me. That’s it, its changing. I’m looking forward for tomorrow, working with the awesome people. Tomorrow will only be Su and Me. She’s in the morning and I’m in the afternoon. So I will do the closing which I’m still unclear off. But R says someone will assist me. Hmm, who will that person be??

I’m sorry I’m not who you thought I was, but what’s happened is in the past and all I can do is try to change and if you can’t accept that, then you weren’t who I thought you were

I will be back updating about the trip to Batu Pahat. I’m bed ridden for almost a day. I can hardly get up or walk to the kitchen. Sigh.

Just because somebody flirts with you doesn’t mean they like you. Just because somebody likes you doesn’t mean they want to go out with you. Just because somebody goes out with you doesn’t mean they love you. Just because somebody loves you doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you. Because people lie and things change, boyfriends cheat, best friends leave and there are always those people that would kill to see you fall.